i hate being alone.. T.T

I m single for 16 years.. friends around almost all of them hv bf or gf..
i really hate being alone.. i don`t want to be alone anymore..
who say this age hv bf is a stupid action..
this is a new generatiom already.. but some ppl.still old ppl thinking..
they think fall in love with someone in this age is really stupid..
i can`t tahan be single anymore.. its too lonely.. >.<
searching for a bf.. T.T

celebrate birthday with friends

17/3 --> my friends celebrate birthday with me~~
so good~ i <3 u all, my friends~ muack~ =3




my friends planned a punishment.. it's for everyone~ ^^
included me.. T.T

chili sos + sugar + hot water~ so disgusting~ i want to vomit =S



want to drank it need some brave~
at the end, only kelly and i drank it~ others can't drank..
hahaha xD
really disgusting~



take photo together~ ^^




kelly and I <3

me--> with cheongsam~ ^^

Today 7/3 --> choir team performance~

today choir team went to Tabung Haji for performance..
all of us wear tradisional clothes~~
I wear cheongsam~ ^^



Shi Wei and I~

Japanese Food~

20/2~ Ang pau special~

Today BB got ang pau special~

after that my bro treat me japanese food~ ^^

 

i <3 the green tea~~

green tea milk shake~~

it taste yummy~~ <3

 

and the food also nice~

malay tradisional---> baju kurung

Jessie and I~~ <3

mamas and I.. <3

with baju kurung--> Janice~~

had jamuan 1Malaysia.. all are required to wear in tradisional clothes or dress.. =]

PMR

Today PMR result come out~~

my result is not bad..
got 4A's..
but i wish to get more A's..
anyway..
pmr is a chance for me to regret..
i'll score more A's in spm..
hehehe =]

that's my feeling

I felt not confidence because I'm fat..I'm stupid..
and l'm not confidence to talk with people cause I'm inferiority... Lastly..
I don't want to go out with people who i am not really know..
Because we didn't have any chat topics.. It will only make me feel more lonely..

I agreed that people in the world are none stop complaining..
I am one of them too..
I am always complaint about not enough money to use..
suspicion myself as a fatter..
why am I soooo stupid!?
why I didn't have a happy family..?
why am I soooo selfish??

this type of question are always in my mind when I talk to somebody or did something..
It's make me crasy..
sometime i happy till laugh..
sometime i sad till wanna cry..
i can't control myself..

People could only see the happy side..
I'm really very sad.. Because I not even have a very close friend to tell a secret..
would anyone understand my feeling..??


Who knows, when I was normal, the real fun and not hypocritical smile...??