i hate being alone.. T.T

I m single for 16 years.. friends around almost all of them hv bf or gf..
i really hate being alone.. i don`t want to be alone anymore..
who say this age hv bf is a stupid action..
this is a new generatiom already.. but some ppl.still old ppl thinking..
they think fall in love with someone in this age is really stupid..
i can`t tahan be single anymore.. its too lonely.. >.<
searching for a bf.. T.T

celebrate birthday with friends

17/3 --> my friends celebrate birthday with me~~
so good~ i <3 u all, my friends~ muack~ =3




my friends planned a punishment.. it's for everyone~ ^^
included me.. T.T

chili sos + sugar + hot water~ so disgusting~ i want to vomit =S



want to drank it need some brave~
at the end, only kelly and i drank it~ others can't drank..
hahaha xD
really disgusting~



take photo together~ ^^




kelly and I <3

me--> with cheongsam~ ^^

Today 7/3 --> choir team performance~

today choir team went to Tabung Haji for performance..
all of us wear tradisional clothes~~
I wear cheongsam~ ^^



Shi Wei and I~

Japanese Food~

20/2~ Ang pau special~

Today BB got ang pau special~

after that my bro treat me japanese food~ ^^

 

i <3 the green tea~~

green tea milk shake~~

it taste yummy~~ <3

 

and the food also nice~

malay tradisional---> baju kurung

Jessie and I~~ <3

mamas and I.. <3

with baju kurung--> Janice~~

had jamuan 1Malaysia.. all are required to wear in tradisional clothes or dress.. =]

PMR

Today PMR result come out~~

my result is not bad..
got 4A's..
but i wish to get more A's..
anyway..
pmr is a chance for me to regret..
i'll score more A's in spm..
hehehe =]

that's my feeling

I felt not confidence because I'm fat..I'm stupid..
and l'm not confidence to talk with people cause I'm inferiority... Lastly..
I don't want to go out with people who i am not really know..
Because we didn't have any chat topics.. It will only make me feel more lonely..

I agreed that people in the world are none stop complaining..
I am one of them too..
I am always complaint about not enough money to use..
suspicion myself as a fatter..
why am I soooo stupid!?
why I didn't have a happy family..?
why am I soooo selfish??

this type of question are always in my mind when I talk to somebody or did something..
It's make me crasy..
sometime i happy till laugh..
sometime i sad till wanna cry..
i can't control myself..

People could only see the happy side..
I'm really very sad.. Because I not even have a very close friend to tell a secret..
would anyone understand my feeling..??


Who knows, when I was normal, the real fun and not hypocritical smile...??

unlucky day..

yesterday i play badminton with my frienz at permata court..
before that, i fall down when I'm on the way to court..
then we played until 6 pm
my leg started to cramped..
after an hour, when my family and I went to pacific..
that time I started can't walked and felt very pain..
then my bro bring me to massage..
the doctor said my bone distortion away..
and he helped me to adjust my bone..
I pain till cry and I shout..

------------this is the story at my first day holiday------------------
End..

recall~~

回想起2009的一点一滴。。
我妈妈顾的--宇函

when CNY 2009

脸圆圆的。。 哈哈

去参加小孩子的生日会。。

宇函的生日。。

带她去怡保玩。。（老板娘架势）

去Queensbay mall 的 Mcdonald's..

我妈妈买给宇函的新年衣服。。 =]

以上就是我最疼爱。。 最可爱的宇函。。

嘻嘻=]

无聊的一天。。

我第一次觉得。。

没有去BB是那么闷的。。

一整天玩game。。



之后。。

闲着没事做。。

我改编了一首歌。。

“小酒窝”改成"BB 我们爱你"
（名字还不确定。。）



哈哈 XD

anchor star

2day our boy's brigade hv "anchor star"
anchor star is a singing competition..

the honest judges:

W/O Joyce Yeap
W/O Christine Hng
W/O Daniel Chooi
S/sgt Eunice Wan

2day..
the song that I want to sing is Miley Cyrus- The Climb
I really overstrain liao..
before i sing..
i sit at the chair that they arranged..
i feel fright..

but when i'm stand at the stage and sing..
i feel relax and didn't scare anythings..
cause all the judges are my sisters and brother..

all contestants are required to stand on the platform
and then ps.joshua gv an envelope to no.1-no.18 contestants..
Eunice gv envelope to no. 19-32 contestants
the atmosphere is very tense

I get the "congratz" envelope.. =)
so when I knew that I in top 10 liao..
I was very happy.. ^^
happy to ear to ear..

actually.. my mum don't know I join anchor star..
I only tell her I want to go for games day..
when I reach home..
I search for the right time
only I tell her..
she was so suprise.. haha XD
cause she not believe I'll in final be4 that..
so I succeeded liao..
all people also know liao..
"I can Sing!!"

The Top 10:

Qiu Yin
Wei Chee
Me (Xin Mei)
Sim Lynn
Felix
Soon Yau
Soo Min
Jun Kai
Zachary
Jason

Congratulation ya.. =)

This time I can in final
the first one I must thanks is my brother..
second is my bro and sis at my second family..
they encourage me when I'm down, scare and overstrain..
thank you !!

HQ..

2day my friend-chuah ying told me that
I'm become happy than last time liao wor..
last time when i still don't know HQ..
I'm very sad, shy and doesn't know how to communicate with other people.

But 2day so happy..
we all see the changes i..
become happy.. friendly.. and learn to be a good leader..

but now..
not me change only..
chuah ying also change liao..
after go to HQ 2 times..
she become happy, crasy,
and she has become very frank..

HQ has change our life!!
hope this big family can continue got new members join us..
thx GOD!!
to give me a chance to go to HQ..
and change my life!!

12 times go to see doctor..

2day walk to see doctor by myself again..
doctor said me swollen nose meat..
so that i always difficulty in breathing..
2day finally know the answer aldy..
and also must very take care my stomach aldy..
If not will have hole at my stomach..

doctor also said that if this two thing is getting serious..
maybe i need to operate.. (need to spend many money again.. ==" haiz..)
so dread.. :''(

doctor also give me many medicine..
there're 5 types of medicine..
waa..
so many..

and also..
very expensive...
rm58..

ME..
really ..
bankruptcy aldy...

no other chooce liao la..
haiz..

pray for me la...
hehe ^_^

11th

2day is the 11th of 2009 i go to see doctor..

haiz...
2day i walk to see doctor myself..
doctor say me must start take care my stomach aldy..
if not will hv a hole at my stomach..

doctor gv me many medicine..
see 1 time doctor nia aldy spend RM48..
so expensive..
but no choose la..
haiz..

thx !!

just now our padang polo BB got a small meeting and planed to prepare a present for our guru penasihat- miss. khaw

our final answer is to do performance for miss. khaw and singing..
but many members do their things not join our small meeting..
I also saw people at there sleep..

I saw Daniel look very disappointed and unhappy...
because their attitude not good..
I want to say sorry and thank you to all BB helper or officer..
cause u all help us, teaches us and made us happy..
all u all do is good for us..
but some members cannot understand..

so I must say THANK YOU to u all..
Altought their attitude bad..
but u all still continue teach and help us..

W/O Daniel, W/O Joyce, S/sgt. Eunice, Sgt. Jonathan, Sgt. Lee Khiy Wei, Cpl. Soon Yau, L/cpl. Tan Wei Sin and L/cpl. Vendy

THANK YOU !!!

cooking competition preparation

Squad 1 cooking competition preparation.. ^^ (4/6/2009)

vendy, wei sin, eunice, qiu yin and cindy... all very busy..

eunice.. cheese

cindy.. ^^ the toufu looks so delicious

looks good .. haha

cooking competition..

2day is our boy's Brigade Penang 14th Company cooking competition..

me is Sq.1..

Sq. 1 got Eunice, Vendy, Wei Sin, Qiu Yin, Cindy and me..

Our team name is the "rose of the paradish cuisine"...


Our theme is Rose..

our table.. cool..

that's cindy.. ^^

we got no.1 ...

but me no mood.. sorry ya..

thank you very much!!

Before chat with Eunice, I never go to think about is who changes my life..

After chat with Eunice... I think many things..

Usually, the first one i must thanks is kelly..

is she invite and force me to join BB

After that, I need to thanks 2008 Padang Polo BB chairman Wei Sin.. she really very good...

She teach me sang BB Anchor song and BB Vesper..

That time I every morning go to found her..

She teaches me everythings about BB..

But the importance is..

she never complaint..

Then, Wei Sin invite me go to HQ...

starting I don't want to go..

but I saw them said about the funny things that had happened at HQ..

so I go and join them..

HQ like a big family..

got many brother and sister..

they all very friendly and kind..

like Eunice, Vendy, Wei Sin, Joey, Cindy, Wei Chee, Daniel, Jason, Khiy Wei and many of them..

Maybe you all think this just a small things..

but this small things are changes my life..

from colourless to colourful..

Thank you very much..

Love BB ..

exam..

So good that exam finish already...
so sad that I'm sick when exam..
I have difficulty in breathing...
doctor say me have too much pressure..
oh my god!!
difficulty in breathing from the first day of the exam until now...
still unhealthy..
hope can get more relax at this holiday... and quickly solve this problem...

hope everybody can have a happy and enjoyable holiday... ^^

our happy times...

hope we're best frienz forever... ^^